One eye on the sky

She didn't open her eyes holding her hands up near her heart, feeling the magic of her power feeling it burning through her. She feels her own power swirling around her that she expands her fingers trying to open something that was like a portal.

Seeing a portal and realizing she was trying to find a way to send him home he tries to stop her. "Katherine?....Love? What are you doing?" He tried to sound calm but he was scared. He didn't want to leave her side but all of this he's seeing scared him now. What was she thinking?

She didn't turn to face him but her hands were still held up in front of her chest. Her eyes were shadowed by her hair but she wasn't sure what to say to him. Knowing he's seen the portal already gave away what she was planning on doing.

"Katherine.."

"I'm trying to gather enough of my power in order to make a portal. To send you home. This realm isn't what you wanted is it? This place is already falling apart thanks to the dragons....they are growing powerful every day....while we grow slowly.."" she only answers his question not seeing his shocked expression.

"Wait; send me home? Is that what the portal is for? I..." He didn't want to leave her nor leave them in this crazy time of a world. With the female dragons going brutal and the only male in hiding. How in the world could he leave her and them like this?

"Yes. I'm trying to get stronger so I can send you back from where you came from. Away from this horrible place. I know you said you wanted to stay here but with everything happening and how you felt I don't know. I want to be sure you are doing alright. You're safe and well.....If I have to send you back home then so be it. That way you will be safe..."

"...But I don't want to leave. I don't want to be sent home because I might never see you again. I know you are worried like the rest but please..it's fine. I want to stay here with you and the others....please, don't send me away. I'm here to help you love. I'm always here to help you.."

"........................................."

"I mean come on; don't I get a say in this in order to stop you from doing something serious. I just want to see you happy and safe, I want to help protect this realm. I can't just leave you alone and in the mercy of the dragons in waiting. *Looks down* I known what ever happened helps but it's not worth the risk of losing you.."

"*Sighs* I know...that's why I'm going to send you back. Away from here..away from this horrible nightmare. This way; you don't have to worry anymore. Just relax and just leave. When I can get a clear point from this magic and that should be it. You been hurt through did? was I wrong to do anything but this. I'm fixing it so you can go home.."

"*Sighs* Yes I got hurt from what you did... instead of dying. Dragons very nearly always kill their targets and thanks to you i can take on one by myself. Sure I got hurt, Katherine but that's because I'm only just getting used to having my true bloodline of power again. It was only one fight my first since I finished my training." He took her hands in his and the portal faded as her glossy teary eyes blink.

How could he say such a thing? Would death be better for him instead of doing all this? She just wanted him to understand how painful he left her after yesterday. That dragon almost killed them but she felt like he should be away from here. Away from this horrible place. She removes his hands from her own to look away from him but felt him hold them again.

"You have to believe me Kat....."

"But you got hurt still if you didn't have power. Everyone is unsure about how bad the dragons gotten ever since and I'm worried of what they could do to you. To the others in the village. Everyone in this realm. They took over everything Marcus. Everything!"

".............................."

"Don't you see by me sending you home, you're safe. With everyone you care for to the others that sees you as a childhood friend. I just want you happy and safe..is that so hard to ask? You should be more careful. You should have just ran off without upsetting the dragon. You think you did everything good but it might have gotten bad..You could have-" he kissed her stopping her. She was worrying and he needed to show her it was alright. His kiss was long and heated before he pulled away she let out a whimper.

"It will take me time to get used to my strength and speed. And when I do, I'll make you a promise..."

"A..A promise???"

"Yes. I promise I'll never get hurt again unless the male shows up." He didn't quite realize what his kiss did to her in her worried state.

She wasn't sure if this was a real true promise or a broken promise for later down the road. Katherine was not sure about it herself but hearing all this made her force Marcus to release her hands away from him then turns away. She still should send him but didn't see his worried expression on his face.

"I still should be sending you home. This realm has gottnen worse to where you saw  a dragon and have no idea what breed it was. I think you should leave from here Marcus..to get away from all this." she mutters looking away from him that he felt worried about it.

"...........I.............."

"You seriously think this will work? Knowing the outcome of all this later down the road. You need to leave Marcus. Get away from this realm and forget about it. This is not something you are used to. I just..want to help by sending you home so let me do that!"


"Calm down Kat please...

"You need to leave. This realm was not ready for you as we were not ready for the female dragons so drow me now or seeing how the ashes hit a few houses we can fix and the smaller village.

"...........Kat-"

"Let me go. I command you to come later and let me take you home. I won't take no for an answer....."

She saw him break down. No more was he strong or confident. Tears well up him his eyes and his voice broke. He just couldn't stop the question. "Do you hate me? Did I ruin us forever? How do i fix it? I don't want to lose everything we did together while growing." Tears flow and he crumpled weeping like a child.

"Why are you sending me away? Why do I have to be alone again? Why cant we just be together?" His tears hit the floor and keep flowing as his heart was opened up to her.

She saw years of self inflicted isolation for the sake of others. Being called slow or stupid because simple things include them but complex things make sense. Knowing something but being unable to explain or even understand how or where the knowing came from. She felt his unstated need for companionship a constant stake in his very soul.

"..............." Seeing Marcus like this hurt. It really pulled at her heart strings seeing a powerful man like himself breaking down on his knees like a child. This wasn't what she expected. This isn't what she would see of him but here she was seeing it. This was not real...right? He kept holding her wrist looking down that tears kept running own his cheeks hitting the ground.

"I don't know what I've done wrong. I don't want to be alone again, Katherine. I don't need this happening to me again. Feeling the loss of pain hitting me like it's never hit me before. I've been alone for far too long to lose someone so close to me again. I don't want to go through that. so I'm asking you Kat..No begging you. Please tell me what I need to do to fix this. I need to fix it.."

"......To fix it I'm sending you back home. You will be safe there Marcus. You'll be safe from this insane realm because it's done too much to you...why won't you let me just do that for you? Don't you want to go home?" she spoke in a mid tone that made him tense up.

"I figure this world of our realm changed because of the female dragons and it's draining us Marcus. I know it hurts but don't you believe leaving this place is better for you. Don't you wish to get away from this place? Away from the monsters that hurt you way before you met us?" he looks down remembering what happened to the ones that lost their lives due to the dragons. This was going all downhill right now and it was scaring him. She looks at him with dull tone eyes but she was sad too.

She wanted him to be happy so why won't he let her do this? To keep him safe even if her father tells her he wanted to stay here with her. To be together with Katherine so they can become close. This just became a fight and going the wrong way. She slowly stood up to let go of his cheeks but turns away looking at her hand then ahead.

"Besides; you been hurt too from the inside and outside. You're heart scarred due to so much lives lost. You've seen it...as much as I have. That's why sending you home is better...to keep your mind sane....isn't that what most would want?"

"...*crying still looking down to close his hands into fists*.......I..This isn't..w..what I.."

"*Sighs* Relax..I'm going to need time to build up magic..I'll be sure to send you home soon, Marcus. You'll be happy again. Safe again from this place.."

"Damn it Kat, I told you I..d.don't want to leave you. I don't want to leave this realm! Why won't you believe me?!"

"................"

He didn't know what do do and it made her want nothing more to do with him. So he thought. Then something occurred to him and his voice trembled. "You didn't answer... you don't believe it... so don't send me away....I don't want you out of my life... it doesn't mean as much to me if i cant share it with you."

He wanted to share his life experience he wanted to spend his time with her even if he didn't know what to say without babbling his thoughts.. talking to himself is how he copes with pain he has to talk himself through it till it cant hurt him any more. Using reason and ordered thoughts to fight the confusing information from his feelings.

It pulled in her heart again and she didn't know what to do either. Sending him away wouldn't work just hurt him more. But talking to him sharing thoughts ideas and feelings couldn't be so bad could it?

"..............."

"All I want Katherine, is to be with you. Living happy even if this realm is taken over. I know in the future it can be free from this. *Looks down* I know you think of sending me home away from here but what good is that going to do for you? For the people living in this realm? I know you guys bee hurting as you have. I don't want to see you upset like this....." his hand just held her wrist carefully and gently that he was seeing her looking down with eyes covered from his view.

"......"

"All I ask of you, is to please at least listen to me. Listen to my words so I can prove to you that I don't want to leave from here. I don't want to abandon you like this Kat. So again please hear me out..at least let me speak." he was holding her hand with both of his own now that she didn't know what to say about it. All of this is just giving her a headache right now. Thinking of either trusting him or not. What could she even choose?

Closing her hand into a fist, she only moves her hand back not looking at him but sees him standing up in front of her. Marcus can see how upset she was before she offers a chair for him to sit in. Of course Marcus takes a seat but she sits in another chair on the other side crossing her arms over her chest. She'll hear him out just only till she gets his story.

He sighed and worked to calm down. Then he told her. He told her how he had to learn behaviors against his will to keep peace in the house. That he always had to pretend to be stupid  to explain a lack of self control. How if he made any mistake he was punished and not allowed to do anything. Then ine day it all stopped and life was peaceful. Then came the challenges. The repeated failures in simple mechanics. Falling further and further behind because teachers talked too fast. Or his thoughts would drown out the world.

How every day everyone could say and do anything and he couldnt speak up about it without some prior transgression being thrown in his face and being told its what he deserves for being lazy. Then he told her how he changed that. How he made a voice to drive him to be better. To take in every lesson and every thought and memory and hold on tight in case he ever lost control he could function. As he grew he learned how to heal he learned how to make himself stronger. He learned how to read and write and how every lesson was pain.

She listened to his life story and sighed having heard it before since they knew each other but then he added something.

"Then I found others... some who on some level shared the delusions of fantasy and understood that the mind is as real a place as the earth. And my story began a new. I had friends i thought would be there forever. Then i ruined it i couldn't accept my choice to be someones friend not lover and it drove us apart..."

He said it finally. The missing piece. He loved someone and they could never feel the same so in pain he isolated himself and tormented himself for driving them away. As she felt him her heart was tugged again.  Even after all that he still wants to keep love in his life. Friends and family are more precious than ever. He couldn't be with her a whole world away and he didn't want to leave her life. He wished to be a oart of it even it if was hard. He did love her he was having a vulnerable time that men have and seeking her help.

OOC: as for us. I dont want to stoo being your friend. I just want to make you happy however i can but when i get stressed it can ocerwhelm me. So i seek accomplishment or a new direction. Im always trying to be better and try new things but i forget alot of things short term.  Its been said i make life hard but to me life is a game. Most times we work hard grind our bodies and brains then go do wht wver we do to rest to do it again. For me its usually sleep. I reduced my gaming but didnt stop i am now playing a game with my sister something ive wanted for a long time. Im slowly learning how to do things i forgot and im also learning that the vpice in my head is my self discipline conscience and subconscious all rolled into one. And they never stop. Im adhd and it causes things like overthinking and inconsistant thoughts and behaviours as well as moodswings when under pressure... deptession when idle and a bad habit to over analyze every situation. Side effects include rash behaviour, moments of pure genius, acute anxiety, and unusual awareness. Complicated head aint it. I dont mean for the feelings to overflow but when i shut them off to function they can and the people i love feel it and it confuses them. Becuase i always appear to be strong and confident unyil my adhd starts trying to work then i get into a frenzy and need to do something to try and balance it out. Its hard. Its my struggle and if i didnt love i wouldnt hurt so badly when im alone.

ooc:....*sighs*...I understand

bic: Katherine didn't say anything else due to hearing his story but it was still upsetting to hear about it. She wasn't sure about it or why but this leaves her wondering about it. Maybe this was another thing she had to learn about Marcus? Her eyes darken a bit looking down to remembering the things her home suffered. The realm trying to recover from everything the female dragons have done. Was it the right thing for her to do? To send him home or let him suffer with them? She was not sure now as Marcus looks up noticing her eyes looking at the floor.

"Katherine?" he spoke in a quiet tone but saw her eyes not light but a darker yellow from feeling the painful anger bubbling inside of her chest. What should she even do now? Was all this worth it? Will her father and the village still suffer later down the road? He tenses up seeing this but lowers his hand not sure what to say to her now.

"........................"

"....If you wish...Fine. I still should send you home away from here..but if you wish to suffer with us.....do what you want.." she said quietly to stand up looking at him but Marcus looks up seeing her eyes now a dark yellow that tenses him up.

"I..."

"I think it's best for you to leave now, Marcus......" she said walking by him and heads out of the room to cool down. She still was thinking about it but now it seems it's shifting from left to right to choose what she should do. Marcus remains where he was but gets up looking worried about her now. He leaves the room as well to head out.

He was afraid he ruin3d everything he hangs his head in shame and slowly follows what she said. At seast she wasnt going to send him away. That tiny thing gave him hope but he would respect her ultimate decision. He llved her and wished only to make her happy.

"..................." She didn't know what to do after he left but something bothered her. Knowing how Marcus was or behaved made her wonder about it. This was something she's not used to and it left her worried about it. Did he really want to stay here with them? With her? His words proved that but it leaves Katherine looking down to grip her arm. Marcus was really doing everything in his power to keep her happy but she was not happy. She was rather upset...

Meanwhile, Marcus got back home but saw Lewis not there since he's spending the evening with Rosie. He already was eating dinner alone in the home but seeing all this going on just made him worried. How will he fix this now? He knew that Katherine was not angry but he didn't wish to upset her. "*Sighs* I'm sorry Kat. I'm so sorry.."

With her, she was sitting at the window looking out but her arms were twitching now. She didn't know what to do because of Marcus. However, her heart was already feeling upset thanks to everything going on. Will things get better for them? Maybe. She wishes things were not like this but her eyes just looks down before feeling them glowing with her magic to wince. Her magic was acting up again. Why though? She was fine after the last time but seems it's gotten worse. She shuts her eyes trying to breath slowly without her mind losing itself from the energy floating around the village.

"..Need...to sleep..." she mumbles under her breath to head to bed for tonight. She had to clear her head for now because it just gave her a head ache.

It was a long dreamless sleep that restored her to full strength. She was a bit sore physically crom yhe backlash but she was gping to be alright. It was hard for her to think because she was worried aboit him.

Katherine shouldn't be that worried about him so what made this different? Was it because she might have hurt him physically? Was it her words that broken him down just a tiny bit more more than she thought? No. That couldn't be the case. Knowing the realms was still fighting to recover or slowly wither way, she wanted to do what is best. Isn't that the true calling of her nature? Her family? She turns in her bed with eyes closed trying to rest or sleep but nothing seems to help.

Her mind was clouded with so many thoughts and images that it was making her have trouble falling to sleep. Seeing everything she wasn't expecting to see. Marcus. His face was clear as day and the sun shining down upon him with her and the others. Kat curled up not sure why she's seeing him more clearly so what was it? What is causing this. All she could do was see him.

She saw him smiling.
Seeing him being happy while exploring the realm.
Learning and growing to become who he is now.
Enjoying his life with friends including her.
Being by her side while they live their lives together.
Loving her for who she is when speaking the truth about her bloodline and his own.
They helped one another to the point of her getting to really know him.

Marcus was unlike anyone she's met before and now it was biting her back on how she behaved to him. She grips the pillow trying to sleep but the thoughts only came clear and more open that she could see the hard struggles of what he's been through to the tears streaming down his face. The ones she caused when trying to send him home. But isn't that what he wanted? No, that's what the negative her would want. Trying to tell her she didn't need anyone through the years so what is different about him?

What makes Marcus so special?
"
She didn't know but this made her slowly open her eyes to feel suddenly alone while hugging the pillow. Her eyes still didn't stop glowing while gazing upon the moon outside tonight. It was so beautiful but it shines the light around everything as she slowly sits up looking at it. Feeling the breeze blowing against her as she just looks at it.

"................" Somehow, she couldn't stop staring at the moon feeling it's warmth and glow that Katherine's darkened arm was glowing with her magic as she grips her wrist feeling a magic band wrapping around her. It didn't sting as much but she slowly looks at it while feeling her muscles twitch and burn. She didn't know why but this only made her feel horrible now.

"...M..Marcus......."

He felt her caling him and it pulled on his heart. He didnt know he was different to her. He thought he was a small boy next to her in expwrince with love and people.

He followed his heart and found her feeling alone and cut off. He didnt knkw what to do so he hugged her and said nothing letting her get her feelings out was important and he was supposed to keep helping her because he promised.

He worries because he has grown up a little inside and things are still confusing somethings are clearer others are foggier the disruption was caused by sudden changes to his mind as things settle. He was a young man and young men make mistakes trying to fix something they are trying not to break.

His mind confuses him because early learning was hard and failure drove him to succeed even if he has to go beyond insanity in repetition until it was right. He was distracted by little things and big things daunted his courage. He became full of himself and pridful only to fall and crash on his own words. Try as he might his flaws keep getting in his way ubtil he accepted them and worked to better hinself inspite of himself.

She felt all that as he held her he was trembling. Afraid to hurt her. Afraid to do anymore and drive them apart. He was trapped in his mind between desire and duty and trying to balance chaos and order. He was always trying so hard to be perfect for himself for others and for what he beleived in.

Being perfect was something no one can reach because it's impossible. The mind may think one is immortal and perfect but it's something else that's speaking about it. Your inner emotions; raw energy flowing through your body and mind that burns like fire. Katherine didn't understand it nor did she like it because that sort of energy confuses her. She's felt it from so many different people in the village and it leaves her feeling exposed of what to do. Knowing how Marcus is feeling right now, how his body shook from the fear of driving more of himself away.

She couldn't move but felt him hold her tight, not wishing to upset her again or make her cry. That's the last thing he wishes to do. All she did was look at the moon with her glowing eyes due to her over filled waves of magic. She reaches with her normal hand to grip the back of his shirt shaking now.

"..I don't understand you..you been through so much. You hurt yourself, felt another's pain..and now..you're here trying to prove something to me. Why won't you just let me help you Marcus? You're existence haunts me because I don't know what to do." her words were soft but he heard every bit of it.

"..I..I don't know. Somehow, my mind is still feeling dull and dark due to the emotions I'm not sure about. I want to fix them and change what I see. I don't want to upset you Kat because I love you too much. Knowing I come from another realm, I can't bare the thought of leaving you...to suffer here alone."

"....................."

"I know it hurts..I can feel it in your heart and how you speak Katherine. I didn't mean to hurt you like that. I wasn't trying to do something that will make you see me leaving your side. I know your very powerful in magic and you fear you are evil because of it. I don't see that..I know you are still maybe upset with me because you think I wanted to push you away...but I don't. I want you to be by my side. I don't want to push you away from me Kat...I..I can't bear it."

"Even if you bared enough. You took in so much of that pain..it's left you confused. Almost as if everything you tell me....is...a..."

"Never. It's not a lie. I don't want to lie to you ever again.....never again, Kat...*slowly holds her darkened hand to look at it*"

"...W..was the kiss you gave me a lie? Was your heart a lie?...w..was everything a lie.."

"....N..No.."

"........................"

"..What's happening to you though? Your arm..."

"My magic is evolving or changing..I can't control it right now but....I don't know what is causing it. Maybe it's because of you being around me? I am unsure but....I don't...want to be alone right now. I know you feel unsure and I won't push you.....just please...I don't want to be left in the dark again.." he felt her hand tightening in his shirt seeing and feeling warm tears hitting his chest.

"Katherine.."

"You left me hurting so much...I just....I don't know..why am I feeling like I'll be sick? Will my magic just grow till it bursts from my body? I....I don't want..to be alone Marcus....P..please...I'm begging you..."

"............."

"Then use it, Katherine."

"W..what?"

"Use your power if it can't be controlled, then learn how to use it. Discipline yourself until it works the way it should. I don't mean to lie sometimes the truth Kat and I cant bear it till you accept it." he helped her energy was flowing out of her easier now that he was near. She felt their energy slowly balancing out as he keeps holding her.

Ooc: if your worried about me lying. I want to be something special and the best i can be is a friend to you. If you have someone be happy if that someone is me i cant ruin our friendship trying to explore being a boyfriend and breaking your heart. I'm not lying when i say i love you but in my heart I know i would mess up. Because we don't live close we live in different worlds and different structures. Our stories are supposed to be fun and help us express pent up up feelings. When i get stressed its hard to focus enough to post because my brain is full and getting bigger.

ooc:I know you don't lie..things have been off during the time. Besides, we are to have fun. No matter what. Bringing life to the characters on this site. That's all we need; a breather from the real life to just have fun during a break.

bic: Katherine didn't say anything but she wonders if Marcus is telling her to stay away from him to grow. She didn't know why but she didn't want to be away from him right now. This helps her in some way and she wanted to never be alone right now. Her eyes shut tightly feeling the moon shining down on them that she sits back looking at him with her good hand touching his cheek. She felt horrible for doing this to make him feel this that she was trying to think of ways to help him. Or at least make him happier again.

"................"

She didn't wish to be alone again because all of this was effecting her emotions right now. Katherine wanted to do something to feel better and know if he was honest with her, he would be here for her. She looks at his face that Marcus looks up to stare into her eyes as she was looking at him. They didn't say anything but it leaves them in silence.

He didn't know what he wanted and it hurt him and her. He was afraid and it spreads like a disease. Looking into her eyes being here talking with her and touching her helped in so many ways.  He needed her to want to be near him. He needed to know his full points not just vague answers. He needs to be talked to and hear another opinion because he feels so much pride in himself it blows his head out of proportions. He was confused and trying to be himself.

He was looking into her eyes and then they kiss. Such a sweet forbidden taste for his mind because of old thoughts from childhood that hurt him for being bad. He cried. His grief and relief mix and he kisses her lips longer. Slow sweet gentle massages that have a salty taste from his tears. He was letting it go and it was hard for anyone to see a man as big and confident as him weak and normal. He only wished to be alive for this but he couldn't anymore because it hurt too much not having a person to love in a physical way.

Ooc: oops got a bit carried away but it is a good look into my mind over this whole year so far.

ooc: I see

bic:The kiss was so sudden and shocking but it left her body relaxing after some time. It was hard to say it but she was unsure about it. This made her wonder how badly he was hurt during the time when showing up at the realm. She could already taste the salty tears that run down his cheeks. He wasn't sure about it but the kiss was making him just hold her tighter not wanting to let go of her. She helped him feel like himself. Not a coward or a weak hero.

'Her lips feel really warm and soothing. It's like I can feel safe with her being by my side. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to leave her to suffer in any way possible. She means too much to me....I just.....*hugs her tighter*'they held the kiss for a while longer before he slowly breaks the kiss to look at her. Their slow deep breathing from the heated puffs of their breaths in the air as she was flushed looking at him. A thin trail of saliva connected them before it breaks since both of them were speechless for a couple seconds.

"....................."

"*Catching her breath*"

"Katherine-"

"D..don't...p..please don't s..speak..p..p..pl...ease.." he felt her hands shaking against his chest but she also felt some small tears forming in her eyes as well. She hated feeling so upset about this but maybe that's because of the realms? With the female dragons going about and things just slowly healing, she wasn't sure how long she can keep her sanity.

".....I......"

"I..I know..I will be here for you Marcus. I don't want to lose you...not now. I know I did stupid things but...I just wanted to be sure you were safe....." he sees her press up closer against him, hoping to help him feel better to show that she didn't mean to be stupid or rude. She just really cared for him in her own different way. He held her close since she is leaning against his body but Marcus didn't know what to say just holding her close looking at her. Her eyes glowing under the moon that shines on this realm to make him become speechless.

'By the gods she's.......*grips the shirt she wore*....Kat...how badly have you been suffering too? It's not just me..but you been hurting as well....even with the dragons going crazy, you are still trying to get through each of the days here in your-I mean our realm.'

He didnt speak even when his brain was trying to get him to he bites his tongue. He wasnt going to ruin this. His speaking akways gets him into trouble when he has to work at being good. He held her and let their touch and embrace last. Together they were safe and slowly their clothes started to feel like a barrier between them. He didnt move. He didnt speak. He held her and let her feel his love for her.

"................."

"*Looks down not sure on what to say*"

'I need to contain myself. I don't want to do something stupid. Not to Katherine. She is my world that shines a light in me. I don't want anything happening to her. Not again...*holds her more* She might not like the thought..but I just want to be able to love her..to prove I really do."

"..................."

This was something he's not expected before in his life or during his journey. Here with having Katherine in his arms. Was this something he really felt was right? Of course. Was it making her happy? He's not sure. All he could do was just look at her that Kat didn't know how to answer him. Was he scared of saying the wrong thing to her during this moment between them? Being able to hold her in his arms was soothing...he only wishes to be here for Kat as long as he can. His hands shifts on her back but he kept biting on his tongue thinking of something.

What should he do? What could he say without upsetting her like before? He didn't want to make the wrong thing slip again like his so called lie. Katherine was already someone he cared and cherish in this realm that he didn't want to ruin it. Even she noticed his behavior.

"...M...marcus? You alr...alright?" she saw him look at her with his eyes before they shifted to the right. Of course he was alright, just trying to bite his tongue from saying the wrong thing. However, he bit it hard enough that it made him bleed. He could now taste some copper in his mouth trying to remain on his best behavior. She looked worried seeing that but he only bit down on his bottom lip to cause more blood to spill.

"M..Marcus; you need to relax. You're hurting yourself....please just relax...you're bleeding..."

"*Slowly parts his lips with blood showing on his bottom lip*I'm sorry Kat. I don't want to ruin this moment. I don't want to do something that will cause me to...say something wrong again. I don't want to break your heart like before. I don't want to hurt you..I just..." he said these words in a silent tone to hold her into a tight hug but one hand rubs the top of her head as she was looking up at the ceiling to grip his shirt and some of his hair. The pets were nice and helping her relax.

".b..but your fine, Marcus. E..everything is fine...r..right? You don't want to leave me alone and I don't with you. I just....*looks down feeling her cheeks blush* I Just want you to be happy....is that wrong to ask of me?" she shifts her body but her lips went near his ear but didn't know that might not be the best idea. "I only wish...for your smile....seeing you happy helps me too. Even when it means you love me."

"..........."His ear flushed red but held back the shudder of her breath brushing against his ear like that. Oh why did she have to speak to him in the ear? Even with that soft flutter of a voice. He just keeps himself relaxed looking down but he didn't want to ruin this. Not this moment.

He felt like she was saving her voice for him in that moment and the hair on the back of his head stood up. She fekt rhe shivers travel up his body and his face broke into a wet smile. He had stopped his bleeding somehow and there was only a tiny bite that was bloodless. His teeth werent bloody and she noticed he wioed his face covering the smile shw pushed oit of his tears. She had his complete undivided attention and his body was responding to her wishes. Now was her chancr to do whar she wanted with him.

Looking more worried, she reaches to clean the tears off his face now or once again that he shuts his eyes to let her. The touches he felt were warm and Katherine was really serious about it. He could feel it. She wanted him to be happy and nothing else mattered. No sadness, no hate, confusion. Just being happy is good enough for her. She started to see him holding her again that his forehead rests on her chest that she looks down rubbing his head with her eyes shut.

"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry I...your voice is...r..really soothing to me, Kat. I love hearing your voice.."

"*blushes worse*t..thanks....even if my voice..c..caused you to feel pain though." she said really soft that he sees her feeling more shy to looking at him and touches his cheek to clean another tear off.

"Feel..pain?"

"From before, Marcus, I know I've....s..said some things you didn't wish to hear. I don't know how to apologize for it. I don't even blame you for hating me like this. I don't blame you for getting angry with me because of it. I was....*eyes shut* I just wanted nothing but you being happy."

"But I am happy because of your, Kat. You changed everything for me. You made me feel like I have to be here. To be by your side fighting for this realm and for your heart. I know things are..different right now but that shouldn't stop us. You mean more to me than anything and I won't have it any other way.." he said these words softly that he nuzzles against her holding her lovingly that she blushes looking at him.

"Y..You mean that?"

"O..Of course I do. I mean every word....."

She didn't say anything for a few seconds before seeing him move back and look up at her as she falls on her knees now the same level as him. She only blushes to look down at her lap feeling more happier that he touches her hands hoping she believes him.

"T..thank you Marcus.."

"You're welcome.." he said in a calm tone before he grabs her carefully and holds her close. She had one eye shut feeling his warmth and protection that he lays back resting on her bed. They lay there together under the glow of the moon that he was blushing heavily knowing that he had her laying on top of him and rubbing her back. Even for Katherine, she was blushing feeling his arms holding her so close to him. He knew his body reacted to this but kept his own mind calm feeling her soft skin and warmth too.

However, the urge to show her love to him was growing stronger that she felt her cheeks flushed a darker pink again but she didn't show him. Even he was doing the same just holding her like this on her bed gazing at the moon.