One eye on the sky

She soon came to realize if she wanted yo show him her love she had to do it without his prompting. She shivered as she felt the desire creeping up her nacl spreading from his hands where he was tpuching her. He was happy on the surface and able to hold the feelings inside but thise feelings were changing to more heated things. He hopes he wasnt being a bother and she kist said he was fine and he trusted her.

Her body starte moving on its own with a lottle help from her subconsious she wanted him and being close liem this was making her feel it strongly. She moved only a bit to frrl some pressure and that gave her more hrat but not anything hea y but soothing and wonderful. Too much could make her feel dark but some wasnt too bad.

Even Marcus noticed the shift in her body, looking down as she was curled up against him. This made him blush again to remain calm but silent at the same time. Who would have guessed Kathrine looked so precious like this? So soft and warm that he wanted to love her no matter what. He didn't care as long as she was happy he's fine. His fingers kept pressing against her lower back as she was resting on top of him. Still leaving slow round strokes to make her blush even worse now.

"I'm sorry. You don't mind me trying to help you relax. You seem a little tense...."

"N..No, I'm alright Marcus. I'm just tried from everything happening so you don't have to worry too much about it. However, the rubs and pats are nice..you don't have to stop." she said not looking at his face but she felt her body reacting to his touch that she couldn't expose herself right now.

"I..If you wish...I won't stop then. I just want you to be comfy." He lays back down to continue the rubs that she was blushing again looking at the window of her room. It felt nice being treated like this but she was trying to remain calm now that her body wouldn't start to shake. Why did his touch feel good? Was she going insane because of all of her emotions or was this something else? She only remained looking at the moon that Marcus blushes himself. Feeling and seeing her trying to adjust herself on him only made him gulp keeping his mind calm.

She was really against him like this while resting in her room. At least he didn't have his gear on just his sleep wear like her. They remain in the room like this or till they fall to sleep which might be later. He didn't even notice the shaking she was doing till he felt her tense up a little. "You okay K..Katherine?"

She didn't trust her voice so she only nods her head slowly but didn't look at him. He grew worried but still kept holding her but his face was flushed as well loving this closeness of her and him. Their hearts beating in their chests as he was holding his composure.

'*Breathes*Easy Marcus.....slow and easy...don't want to upset her but she's shaking. I hope she's alright....maybe a blanket will help?' he looks around but spots a warm blanket to reach over and puts it over them. He held her with the blanket that she was blushing worse to shift that her hand rests on his lap. He tense as well that she removes it quickly feeling nervous.

"I..I'm so sorry Marcus..I didn't expect you to get the blanket.."

"I..*clears throat* It's fine..no worries. Please, just keep resting. I'm right here, kat..." he mutters keeping her close to him as she blushes still looking but kept her hand away from that area even if her fingers twitched.

He noticed something was on her mind and decided to ask. She was twitching and quivering like she was on the edge and he wanted to see if he was guessing right. "You seem to be holding back. Are you doing okay? Is there something you need me to do?" He was asking vaguely. And she answered the same.

"Maybe... your so sweet its hard to know what to do..." she quivered again and her fingers twitched. She was definitely still holding back so he definitely tried being specific.

"You want more don't you? Its okay if you do... I feel the same..." he said and blushed.

"Wait..Y.you do?" she didn't know if she heard him right. If Marcus wished for the same thing, then is it possible he really did feels the same way? Knowing how her emotions tend to play with her to think this was just a dream to her. Everything that's happen isn't real; it's in her fantasy. She shook her head looking down to grip her shirt that Marcus grew worried about it.

"Kat?"

"I'm sorry Marcus. I don't mean to space out like that I just....I don't know if I'm dreaming when you say that. I don't want to wake up because you are here with me. You didn't leave me alone but if I did wake up..I'll be in my room alone.....while you are in your own home." she didn't want this. She didn't want to be upset again but the feeling of all this happening tells her differently.

"Kat, this isn't a dream. It's all real. I'm right here......" One hand touches her cheek to have her lean into his touch. He rubs her cheek seeing Katherine feeling upset after some time to make her feel unsure. She didn't want to be alone but Marcus only feels worried thinking she's over thinking.

"Do you believe me, Katherine?"

"I d..do believe you. I do but...*reaches to hold his hand*I only wish to never wake up.....because you'll be gone if I wake up.." she leans against into his chest that Marcus held her once more. She was looking through the window now unsure but he only keeps her close against his chest even more.

"You don't sound alright either way. I hope I didn't say anything wrong because of it. I do wish to prove that I care for you. I do wish to be sure you are happy...I just....*holds her tighter* I don't want you to feel like I don't wish to lie to you. I really want you to feel that you are helped and loved...I don't want you to feel that you are alone..I'm real....I'm all real." he whispered.

"............................"

"Kat?" he looks at her seeing Katherine not answering him that she grips his shirt not sure what to say. However, she decided to prove it. Being quick, she moves back to sit up and move up quickly. He moves back seeing her jump at him that she was over him looking down at Marcus face. He looks up at her flushed in shock but she was looking silent biting on her bottom lip.

"................."

"..................."

Ooc: he said a few things that motivste me to keep writi g with you befor she pounced thank you that made me smile

Bic: he was looking up at her. She was shaking biting her lip and seemed to be doing her best to restrain herself but she was definitly wanting to take him. She aslo wanted to make it special. She was trying so hard... why was she crying?

Was she happy with him or taking his pain away? Was she hurting inside and unsure how to feel better?

ooc:hmm

bic:"I'm sorry Marcus. I don't want to over think this because I'm just..I don't know...*looks down* I know you been through a lot and I guess I have to....I just..*eyes shut*" he saw her begin to shake now that he got worried seeing tears forming in her eyes to start building.

".............."

"I know I shouldn't be like this because you're here but..I fear I might draw you away because of my feelings and emotions. Everything is against me, Marcus. It's like everything I know or do isn't here to help me. I don't want to hurt you or anyone else..I just..*tears begins falling on his face* I just want everything to be alright again...that's all I want...I don't want you to get hurt because of my words...*hics sniffing to sit up and covers her face*" she couldn't stop the tears from flowing down while crying but this made Marcus sit up looking worried. He's never seen her break down like this from all the build up tension in her heart.

She just kept crying more and more before he couldn't take it. Marcus swiftly moves to her and grabs her in a close hug. He had a hand on the back of her head to rub it softly as she was looking up still feeling tears coming down.

"Please stop crying Kat, It's alright...just please..no more tears.." he mutters to her that she didn't know what to do. Knowing he was worried about her now just made him feel worse now. He even grew worried about it moments ago or later on. He started to see her just grip the back of his shirt that she was sniffing wondering if he thought of her being weird.

"I'm sorry...I just.......*grips his shirt tighter*....."

"No more sadness Kat...it's going to be alright now..I give you my word...just no more tears...."

That was the worst thing he could say. She needed to let it out but he told her to hold it in. He knew if he holds things in it comes out in the wrong way and is not seen as it is intended. He held her and rubbed her back working to comfort her. He patted her back saying "there there" until she could control her tears. She recovers slowly feleing him still hugging her and rubbing her back.

He didnt try anything it wasnt the right time yet. She meede dto feel this and let it flow until she could stop it and let the rest out later.

She didn't move or do anything after a while but Marcus felt something warm hit his cheeks. Katherine must be crying again but at least she was letting it out. He just held her in a warm embrace to show he's right here for her and hopes she feels better soon. Soft hics and sniffs came from her that she shuts her eyes gripping his shirt after a while. This makes her cuddle up more against him again as Marcus lets out a sigh still petting the top of her head.

His sigh was a release of her own stress he was feeling. He willingly accepted it because he knew how to help. He rubs her back and pats her head letting her cuddle closer. He was letting her do as she wisbed and waiting for he rto feel better. All the while he was hoping and praying deep in his heart to help her feel better. Time passes for them like it was stanging still in the room but regular everywhere else. Nothing mattered to him except easing her suffering as much as he could while he was near her.

He didnt know how long and it didnt matter so long as he and her were okay. He cared for her and bit by bit she could slowly begin to recover. It wasnt fast it didnt need to be. He knew that she would feel better in her own time and it was his duty to remain by her side.

She didn't do much or move from Marcus, relaxing in his arms that he looks at the window again seeing the moon up high. It was pretty tonight and even with the world over run with dragons, this was not too bad. Katherine needed time from all this because he still felt horrible about before. Getting mad at her and hitting her hand away when she wanted to talk.

".............."

From the cuddles and head pets, she opens her eyes slowly looking down that her fingers relaxed still sniffing with little tears coming down her cheeks. Their was not alot this time but it's fine with her. Maybe she felt bad for ruining the moment between them? However, she was happy that he was giving respect of helping her feel better than what she felt a while ago.

In a few more minutes, she parted her lips to say, "Sorry for ruining the moment. This helps me really well and now i feel like I just...I don't know. Ruined this moment between us...I hope you are not angry.." she spoke in a light tone that he looks down worried. What did she mean? Nothing was ruined so it was fine.

"I know I did but...it's fine I guess..."

"But you didn't do anything wrong, Kat. If this is helping you then it's fine. I rather see you happy again than be upset like this."

He hides how glad he was that she was feeling better and hiw proud he was that she felt that way. He didnt make any moves on her and it didnt ruin the moment. If she wanted the moment to cone back she could start it up. He would burn hot right away and hesitate before returning whatever she did.

He holds her still rubbing her back and her tears slowly dry up. He knew she needed this but it was hard to fet her to let it out. For some reason probably fear she holds it all back and it hurts her. He knew whu she didnt trust him. It was the same reason he didnt trust himself. He contradicts himself. It wasnt oh purpose his feelings just send him mixed messages. And he doesnt always think *if ever* before speaking or writing. The problem was he was divided inside and at war with himself. He wanted to be good but his habits fight him. His memory fails when he wants to remember things the most. His heart breaks when he sees somethig tragic. Flares when someone gets away with something he was punished for or when he finally asks for help he feels he is snubbed. Often times his wild nature gets the better of his orderly learning. He wished most of all to be a good man and every decision was a battle of will.

He didn't move or stopped his treatment of helping her feel better. All he did was make sure she was alright for now till she did something on her own. Katherine liked this peace mind set between them and it left her feeling more relaxed in his arms, seeing such a thing just made her feel more relaxed thanks to it. She only begins wondering if he was really happy being here helping her from this feeling that it made him shift again, holding her closer into him. He wanted to show she's alright. She's safe with him. Even if this realm is filled with dragons, he'll protect her.

"......"

"......" She didn't say anything or look up at him while being in his arms but that left her already over thinking about it. All Katherine did was get more closer to him that she had her head resting against his chest with her eyes looking down. He didn't know if something was wrong before seeing her look up and kiss his chin. He tenses up from the slight kiss but didn't speak or move. Maybe it's a way to say thank you for helping her. This got him blushing furiously now and he only remains still holding her closer that he shuts his eyes trying to relax.

To be honest, Katherine found it cute but he was just being himself either way. Marcus just wanted to prove that he was happy here with her.

He kisses her forehead and the heat of his blush left a tingle on her skin. He did his best to keep close and keep her comfortable

The kiss on the forehead made her shiver, feeling goosebumps forming on her skin. Such a shocking feeling left her feeling like this? Incredible. She wasn't sure how or what but Katherine didn't mind. It was nice to know that someone else cares for her just the same. This made her only wish to become closer to him. To prove that point, she cuddles up more that she was hoping to thank him for such kindness.

"You still alright, miss Kat?" his voice was barley loud but not too soft either. She blushes when his breath brushes her ear that she shuts her eyes feeling her face heat up. It felt weird to be this close to him and knowing the outcome made her feel more nervous.

"Y..Yes; I'm alright thanks to you Marcus. Thank you for being h..here for me. You didn't have to but you did...I'm really happy to be here with you." even her voice was softer that made him blush finding it lovely. He keeps his arms around her shoulders in a embrace that he was looking down feeling her resting.

"I'm glad. I just want you to be better again to be full of happiness. I just wish I can be here with you always. I won't cross any boundaries or make you nervous Katherine. I just want to be sure you are taken care of...and loved for who you are."

"T...t.....Thank you." she said to gulp but it was sweet. He was showing her such kindness and love that her body was burning up again. What is happening to her? Why is his words effecting her so much? Was it because she wished to show her thanks? Her love for someone like him? Would he even want to? All these questions were popping up in her head that she slowly moves her head from his chest making Marcus look down at her.

Their eyes connected again and he was able to see her flushed pink face. The blanket still wrapped around them that he was unsure what was wrong. "........."

"Is....ahem, is something wrong Kat?"

"I....no, I just....I hope I can give you a thank you present for being this kind to me, Marcus. You're sorta killing me with such kindness right now. I don't know what to do...I just wish their is a way to express how happy I am thanks to you.." he didn't know what to say but feels her resting both hands on his lap making him blush. He grabs her hands to hold them gently and rub the top of them.

"You..you don't have to thank me for anything Katherine. I'm glad to be of some help for you because you mean a lot to me. I Know I been stupid in the past but..I just want nothing but happiness for you......."

"But I am..w..when it comes to you...I just want to thank you..." she blushes feeling how careful he was holding her hands. His strong warm hands were holding her smaller ones like they were new weds. He blushes heavily just like her but in some way. Her face was looking dazed, her eyes were glowing still and giving off a calming energy around them. However, it also left a burning feeling in her lower stomach. Whatever was wrong, she wanted to give her thanks to this man.

"Again; you don't have to Katherine. I'm already-"

He sees her lean in closer that her body pushes up against his chest. He blushes laying against the bed board feeling her in between his legs to look at him. She gave off a flushed expression that she was pouting. "P..Please Marcus...I owe you so much..it's not fair If I can't repay you for your kindness....so please c..can't I..." she was moving closer that their lips were drawing near each other. He keeps his hands on either side of him blushing furiously about this.

"K-kat I..I don't know what to say you're doing your best I get that but when I get close I just want you to act."she kissed him. Of course she could she knew that but he was so akward about things like this that he didn't really know what to do or say anymore. Her beating burning lips press against his for a hit moment then she pulls back. Looking down at her eyes he saw what he thought were her desires and blushed. He couldn't just do these things without her asking and then he realized she was asking to do these things with him.

"Please Marcus just let me thank you. You don't have to say anything special or important, just be your normal sweet self."He nodded. He understood for the time being and returns her kiss with one of his own. Slow deliberate and a little clumsy were his kisses and she loves them but it wasn't what she asked for and that was why they were clumsy.

"As you wish l-lovely M-miss Kat" he gave her permission to have her way with him to thank him however she saw fit.

The kiss made her heavily bush seeing him blushing, feeling both of her arms wrapped around his shoulder leaving thank you kisses on his shoulder to we can go with it. It was soothing to feel her relaxing like this but he still didn't push it when helping her. Katherine was the main person he had to help and he was going to do just that. She already hissed feeling that but only shifts that he holds her close. He as so nice to her and it left her speechless for he day to leave simple kisses and nips against her already slightly heated skin. She whines feeling his fingers brush against her skin that she was already burning up in heated desire because of it.

Ooc: i may have messed up im not worring im explaining i was thinking he could feel her heartbeat in her lips and if he kisses her they were clumsy hehe *rubbing back of head*

Bic: he keeps holding her and was grateful that she was feeling better. It was hard to keep himself steady and he begins to rock with her. It was a gentle swaying meant to comfort and support her. He was silent now kust staying with he rand giving some return kisses when he couldnt resist anymore.

ooc:it's fine. At least you explained it to your best ability

bic:She didn't know why the kiss was so soothing to her but it helped Katherine so much. Her body was relaxed, the feeling of someone doing their best to comfort her just shows they cared. He keeps on holding her close against him while kissing her that their lips pressed against one another. It already was a burning sensation that she was feeling more and more heated because of it. Her body just moves on it's own to wrap her arms around his shoulders hoping to feel more.

"................." he moves his hands slightly more that he was hoping to do everything in his power to help her feel better and stay happy. Nothing too fast or too slow. He wouldn't want to upset her either way. His body just keeps relaxing on her bed with them under this warm blanket that she whimpers feeling him holding her in a lovely embrace. He breaks the kiss slowly panting against her lips as she was doing the same with his own. Eyes locked and their faces flushed pink.

"You...you still alright, Miss Kat?" his voice was low but she heard it still blushing.

"Y..Yes; i'm fine. It's just...t..this is...our first time kissing l..like this. It's not bad i..is it?" True, this was their first time kissing and holding each other like this but he only touches her cheek seeing one of her eyes shut close while the other remains open. She was so cute like this and feeling all flushed made him wish to love her as much as he can.

"It's wonderful. You already got me flushed because of a simple kiss Katherine. I think you are doing fantastic......"

"R..Really?" she sees him smile and gives a slow nod of his head. He actually liked the feeling of her lips against his own. The kiss was already doing wonders for them that she felt her body heating up ten times words. His kindness knows no limits but she feels him pull her back down gently to kiss her lips again. They were so warm and soft that his heartbeat was beating loudly while he could even feel her own heartbeat when they kissed. Her lips were already throbbing each time her heart beats but it just made her wish to feel as much as possible.

They remained in this heated hold together in the blanket that she and he didn't know their bodies were reacting strongly in this. Thinking the feeling of his body heating up feeling the need to love her and show she's alright. Same with her feeling slightly heated too. They still kept up with their kissing before she feels him break the kiss and tries to deepen the kiss. She squeaked from the action but whines feeling something hot and slippery past her bottom lip.

Was that his tongue? She assumes so because he held her cheeks as they kissed but she parted her lips for him. Right away, it slips past her lips and swirls against her smaller one now making out with one another. She held his hands that rested on her cheeks that she sits up in his lap while they make out.

'S..so this is making out? What a weird sensation. I never expected such a thing before and..It gets me wondering more about it....so much..and so hot too....it's already causing my thoughts to slip away...' her eyes were half way open from doing this before shutting them, wishing to savor this feeling just a while longer if she could.

He lightly gingerly touches her tongue with his slowly massaging while his lips stay massaging her own. He wasnt sure exactly what he was doing but it didnt really matter because she was really enjoyjng thjs time together. His kindness was maybe poorly motivated but he wanted her happy any way he could. He wasnt thinking his brain was burning and thkughts just didnt have time to form and stay.

She shuts her eyes still from feeling his tongue against her own, kissing him back to her best ability. Her hands rests on her lap feeling him holding her as close as possible that she was blushing heavily thanks to it. They never did this before but somehow, it felt alright for them. The kissing they shared still kept going for a little while before his hands moves up her back to pull her closer. She felt the sudden shift to wrap her arms around his shoulders that she blushes heavily to feel him just rub her back with his hands slipping under her shirt.

They kept kissing after a bit before she and him pull back panting slightly that she was burning up worse. Marcus blushes seeing her flushed expression too that he gulps not sure if she hated it or not. She was breathing slowly but felt really different now. From being held like this made her look nervous. "Why are y..you staring is something w..wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong I just.....I hope I'm doing alright.....I don't want to go past any-"

"You're fine, Marcus. Trust me; I don't feel scared or anything..I just feel more...f...flushed and heated. The kiss is effecting me and I don't know why..it leaves me curious about it....in a good way.....r..right?"

".....G..good point...that just means you feel good....."

"I....do? That's why my whole mind is foggy and....it feels like I'm aching everywhere...." she mutters blushing that he blushes worse still holding her close. She just looks at him after a while before looking down feeling more heated after some time. She didn't say anything else but she quickly kisses him to stop Marcus from speaking or trying to while swirling her tongue against his own.

He keeps kissing her it sure what else to do. He never did this before ad it was hard for h8 to think. He didnt knkw what was right what was wrong or why he even was worried. He focused on her and keeps kissing her until she couldnt take anymore.

They kissed more and more that Marcus feels her hands resting on his cheeks while she was already whining wishing to feel a little more. He didn't want to over step anything with her but show things will be fine. He wanted to be sure she was cared for and loved even if this was their first time doing something like this. After a while, the kiss got broken with her panting heavily in the open cool air looking dazed.

What.. next?" He asks panting and heated. He really want sure but ideas were starting to confuse him.

"..Hah..hha..I..I don't know. I'm not used to this sort of feeling myself. I was taught some things about the birds and the bees but I..never experienced it myself. Do you k..know what might be close?" she was just as confused as he was seeing how he was looking flushed but unsure himself. This could be something else but he wasn't sure how at the moment. He just kept holding on his lap while looking at Katherine but she was blushing from being looked at for so long.

"W.well, the kissing seems to have did something....hmmm..m-maybe touching might help? Would it be alright to...touch you?" he asked seeing her more confused.

"B..but you're already touching me, Marcus..u..unless you mean..o.other areas?" she said blushing worse that she sees him blushing redder himself seeing this. She looks away feeling nervous but this was still so new to her. She's never done this with anyone and he was the main one doing it. Feeling how her breathing hot heavier just made her feel more flush.

"..I....I guess..w...we can go f..from there and see.....s..so yeah s..sure..y..you can....b..but be gentle with m..me okay?"

"......r...right, of course...you know I won't hurt you Kat..." he said holding her but she blushes more feeling his hands near her lower stomach. She did trust him; she always did before the lie. Now, she really had to trust him during this....

He was sensitive at first lightly touching her skin and rubbing near her lower stomach. It was light and soft and sometimes her skin would catch on his fingertips and slide them up a bit or down he wasn't sure if she was enjoying this  like the kissing so while he touched her and explores her body with his hands he watched her reactions trying to figure out what she liked and get closer to those spots.

Sometimes he would brush a sensitive spot and he would ask "here?" And she would just nod and let him keep rubbing he had a hand on each of her hips and was getting close to her area and that seems to make her want it more. Tingles of excitement rush through them both as she reacts to his touch and he relaxed and gained more confidence.

His light massaging of her sides and hips were becoming more relaxed and more sensual as he starts to feel how her muscles were shaped. He follows the lines of her veins where the skin is sensitive around to her front. His fingers were really close to something forbidden from his thoughts since he hadn't seen one before and she was leaning into him breathing hard deep breaths.